My 2,700 square foot penthouse loft in Boston’s Financial District was formerly occupied by the legendary photographer, Ralph King. My landlord, Jim Jason and neighbor Ted Jensen said that he partied high with models and raised a lot of hell there during the 1970’s. They also told me that he got out of town and went to the Big A ~ New York City where perhaps he might be less noticed by the authorities. While I did not tell my LL that my parents had named me Ralph ( and that I had changed my name to Ray in July of 1980 ), I did assure him that my hell-raising days were over and he had nothing to worry about. That was before I invited the beautiful creative genius Ramszy, who taught authentic Arabic dance to live with me when she lost her little apartment in East Boston. ( Her 2 adorable cats, Douba and Chiki also came along ~ they certainly eliminated any visits by mice and other rodentia from the 6th and 7th floors of 103 Broad Street ! ) It was also before Jo Ann Rose lived with me when her 40-something roommate of several years got involved with an insanely jealous and insecure teenager from Pakistan who just wanted to ‘totally eliminate’ JRF if you know what I mean.
Well ~ here it was, now 1997 and I was still living and teaching yoga there. I had survived these chapters of ‘co-inhabiting’ the space with Ramszy followed by JoAnn Rose. They had also survived as well; and each of my relationships with these two women had progressively evolved.
I often slept in the front ( Broad Street ) end of the loft in a room that was sheetrock on 3 sides while the front wall was rough hewn stone ~ ( obviously from a time when this building was on the harbor front adjacent to East India Row~ which still exists today and is the site of the two residential hi-rises known as Harbor Towers who’s construction back in the 1970’s kept the Harbor area from falling into total dereliction and I believe, actually sparked the Renaissance of the mid-1990’s gentrification of the entire area ~ including the ‘Big Dig’ and it’s replacement by the Rose Kennedy Greenway.
As I drifted off to sleep and awoke in the dawn I was greeted by the sentinel clock face of the Custom’s Tower ~ very surreal like a Dali or a Di Chirico painting ~ peering in from the diagonal ceiling mounted skylight window ~ in its pre-Marriot time- share conversion state, somewhat languishing from disuse.
One cold grey November day I awoke and sat up on the edge of my bed. I realized that my body was still in bed sleeping and that it was my ‘dreaming body’ that was awake. At the time I had a subscription to the magazine ‘American Photography’ ~ a copy of which was on the floor near the bed. I was drawn to pick it up having scanned it last night just before going to bed. Leafing through it in my lucid ‘waking’ dream , I exclaimed; “Oh, I didn’t notice, How about that? Here’s a picture of Gurumayi in black and white presiding over a satsang with a room full of devotees”. My eyes gazed upon Gurumayi’s profile serenely relating to these people for several breaths. Then ~ her face and body, seated in her chair ~ turned towards me.
It was like a camera zooming in and / or her face became close –up. It was Now in full living colour as well ( ! ) and she held my gaze with her eyes, steady and cool. I perceived that behind her laser-like expression was also a delightful joy that translated to me as ‘compassion’. She must have waited for me to get ’ that’ and without further hesitation she spoke to me directly : “ Ray, I am going to kill you ( the person who you are ) so that you can become the person that you can be”. She withdrew a pistol from her robe, aimed it @ me and this incident ended with an expansive flash of white light. I awoke about a half hour later and recalled this profound exchange for ‘some time’.
Soon, her prophetic statement would begin to come true. In 1998 I began to negotiate with and arranged to bring the 1stHolographic Repatterning® practitioner to the Boston area, the charismatic and creative Susana. She initiated me into HR and we collaborated on exposing this wonderful and effective healing modality to many persons throughout greater Boston. During the course of these events~ it made total sense to me that I should be learning how to do this myself to enhance my own self -improvement and also to help empower others with this gentle but powerful form of ‘quantum healing‘. Please see my website for more information about my journey of becoming a certified practitioner of ( formerly ) Holographic ~ now referred to as ‘Resonance Repatterning ™ ’. http://www.rayiasiello.com/aboutHR.html ALSO : http://www.rayiasiello.com/HRprac.html
I hosted Susana 4 times in 1999. Through our enthusiastic efforts she gained numerous clients in her new career as a practitioner of HR. I became the organizer of a series of seminars working with Michelle, a certified teacher of the process on how to become a practitioner of HR. We all knew each other through our involvement in Siddha Yoga Meditation centered in South Fallsburg, New York in the Catskill mountains. Susana helped direct the Hatha Yoga Department there and had been a resident of the ashram for some time. ( From 1994 to 2004, my focus in Siddha Yoga was to offer my seva ( service) in the Hatha Yoga Department). I visited the Shree Muktananda Ashram 2 to 3 times a year for days to weeks @ a time, learning about the Siddha Yoga approach to Hatha Yoga and performing spiritual practices as made accessible by participating in the ashrams daily schedule.
In 1997 I visited the temple of ‘Bade Baba’ ~ Bhagawan Nityananda who had been Baba Muktananda’s guru. It was before dawn. In the temple meditating in the presence of Bhagwan Nityananda’s ‘murti’ ~ his larger than life statue in which his ‘spirit’ resided, I had a vision: Baba Muktnanda entered the temple quietly and he indicated to me to notice Susana who was also in the temple meditating. Baba conveyed to me that I was to take Susana by the hand and help lead her out of the ashram to another place so that the rest of her life could unfold as it was supposed to.
In 1998, approximately, Susana did leave SMA and returned to her mother’s home in Miami, Florida where she had grown up after her family had come to the USA from Castro’s Cuba. We had been in contact and I offered that she should come to Boston to teach some yoga workshops that I would organize. She mentioned offering the community here her services as an HR practitioner. When she actually got here, it was the Holographic Repatterning®that people wanted and needed from her and not the yoga. I helped arrange for her to hold some presentations @ the Finding Inner Peace Yoga and Stress Reduction Center( where I was on the faculty ) on Boston’s South Shore and she was a hit ~ someone who scores of people wanted to have individual sessions with. She took me out to dinner towards the end of her 1st visit here @ Jae’s restaurant in Boston’s Theater District near ‘Park Plaza’ as an expression of her appreciation for my having helped her. After dinner, I told her about my vision and Baba’s guidance about telling me to help her transition to another chapter of her life after being in the ashram for so long. She stated that this was a total projection on my part and that in NO WAY did she feel that this was true and wanted me to know that she was not having any part of it.
Well ~ from that moment on our relationship became quite adversarial ~ she wanting to disassociate herself from me as much as possible except in regards to me connecting her with clients ~ and me wanting to continue to develop both a professional and personal relationship with her. I recall going through a couple of ‘dark nights of the soul’ during this painful yet creative time. Holographic Repatterning® certainly helped me deal with my pain and non-coherent patterns that were contributing to the situation. Actually ~ I realized that my focus @ that time as being in the role of ‘organizer’ was to reach out to persons who wanted to become empowered by learning how to become practitioners of HR. Susana’s focus, understandably, was about developing a broad base of clientele who she could help and who, in turn would help her to have a means of supporting herself.
There are many details and circumstances that occurred that do not need to be discussed here. She went on to get married to a colleague and long-time friend from Toronto and her career pathway continues to unfold. I went on and continued to host and hold together the budding community of Boston area students of HR; eventually becoming certified myself in 2002.
Off the record~ I have heard from a very reliable source ~ that Gurumayi stated that Repatterning was acceptable as an additional way that people could use to help heal themselves of their ‘samskaras’ ( karmic patterns often associated with pain, ignorance and limitation ) along with spiritual practice. Over time ~ now going on 11 years since then ~ I am a lot happier, a lot lighter, a lot healthier and there is so much less anger in my field of consciousness that I am a significantly different person. I truly feel much more on the way to fulfilling and manifesting the potential of who I can truly be in this lifetime.
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